Splenetic Existentialism

I have a bleak sense
of what life is about -
eat, shit, procreate,
die, become worm food,
some level of engagement
in relationship I suppose

it’s a human condition
to find a deeper meaning
or purpose to one's existence
but I have no religious
or spiritual questions -
just the premise
that we are all parasites
ultimately destroying this planet,
essentially alone, misunderstood,
appreciated less by others
than one appreciates oneself

I have no personal desire
to 'grow and develop'
as a more complete human being
I gave up on that pursuit
a long time ago  
I just want to be present
and share what seems sharable
when we get together,
to be respectful and compassionate
in response to what is shared with me.


April 02, 2013